I have been working on releasing that which holds me back. My self-vonsciousness, my bruised ego of seeing all these people doing wonders in the world and i have spent three years getting back to myself.
Sometimes i feel evhos of past times in places in this city. Apparently its time to heal the heartsickness i feel of lost loves, friends, and family.
I watch my mother miss him so, and it breaks my heart. I hope someday to make her proud of me, although she is, but now i must plan to be her caretaker as time passes on. The role has been a blessing. It has brought us closer.